Where were you?

scribble pad.

"Where were you when I was burned and broken
While the days slipped by from my window watching
Where were you when I was hurt and I was helpless
Because the things you say and the things you do surround me
While you were hanging yourself on someone else's words
Dying to believe in what you heard
I was staring straight into the shining sun

Lost in thought and lost in time
While the seeds of lifeand the seeds of change were planted
Outside the rain fell dark and slow
While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime
I took a heavenly ride through our silence
I knew the moment had arrived
For killing the past and coming back to life

I took a heavenly ride through our silence
I knew the waiting had begun
And headed straight..into the shining sun"

- "Coming Back To Life" (Pink Floyd)

..... That's exactly how you feel when you discover the system has let you down. when the people you trusted let you down. (why wont they open their eyes and see the system for what it is??) but then you have to fight the system. so, if they make it necessary for you to fight them as well - so be it.

there are some days when you feel soooo incredibly tired and disillusioned. when you wish you could simply drop dead because it feels like all you've ever done is fight fight fight to stop this shadowy menacing thing.... thats when you listen to this song and come back soaring- reborn and ready to fight.